Auro - My new Friend..

Respected Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh

Have a great time in Dubai.. at DIFF.. to be more accurate.. to receive recognition must have by now become a second way of life.. recognition of your efforts over the years.. recognition for creativity.. recognition for entertainer numero uno.. recoginition for being Amitabh Bachchan.. recognition by India.. recognition by France, England and now Dubai and several other countries.. recognition for Hindi Cinema world over.. recognition by your EF should be a matter not as important as some others.. yet I Abhaya Sharma.. member or could I use one of the senior EF.. not merely by age but also by presence here for a long duration want to say this..

Brother, little did we expect that one day we would be so close to you through this medium.. little did I (as a first person) realise that I would be fortunate enough to have spend three hours under the same roof at Bharatiya Vidya Bhavan.. Little did we (Amrit and Savita join) thought that PAA would be such a great movie.. Little did we all (the EF) had ever beleived that we would be on a daily meeting exercise with you.. your time management skills must be a lesson to the management curriculum on the subject.. in a nutshell.. we are blessed to be with you on this short journey of life.. short but filled with joy and much that makes life worth living.. we learn from you each day.. we almost have created a second world for ourselves.. however virtual it may appear to naive it is real in every sense of the word..

I must add hurriedly that there could not have been a better utilization of the new medium in Internet by me other than being able to connect to you at will.. I know I felt let down by my own acts in not waiting a little longer at the green room and giving up on the lifetime opportunity to be able to see you from a hand shaking distance.. it was not to be.. it was not the time when I should have disturbed you .. knowing well how many bigwigs might not have got a chance to say simply hello to you that night or the other night at the premier of PAA.. no, no, I did not appear for PAA's premier.. I could not..

PAA everyone here on the EF must see atleast once and if possible in theater alone.. no, no, I am not advertising the film I am only offering a suggestion.. I am only here to remind you that one must not miss the opportunity to meet 13 year old Auro.. that one must not miss a great movie of modern times.. brother is a part of it or rather a central character is only a secondary fact... primarily it is a great movie..

More later
With Love to you Auro for being so lively despite the sudden ageing process that changed your physical configuration.. your presence was indeed a blessing.. a lesson in life to be more precise..
Love, Affection and Pyaar
Abhaya Sharma

kahan tak ye man ko ---

बातों बातों में -

कहाँ तक यह मन को
अंधेरे छलेंगे
उदासी भरे दिन कभी तो ढलेंगे
...
कभी सुख कभी दुःख
यही जिंदगी है
यह पतझड़ का मौसम
घड़ी दो घड़ी है
नए फूल कल फिर
डगर में खिलेंगे
उदासी भरे दिन कभी तो ढलेंगे
भला तेज कितना हवा का हो झोंका
मगर अपने मन में तू
रख यह भरोसा
जो बिछडे सफर में
तुझे फिर मिलेंगे
उदासी भरे दिन कभी तो ढलेंगे

कहे कोई कुछ भी
मगर सच यही है
लहर प्यार की जो
कहीं उठ रही है
उसे एक दिन तो किनारे मिलेंगे
उदासी भरे दिन कभी तो ढलेंगे
कहाँ तक ते मन को अंधेरे छलेंगे
उदासी भरे दिन कभी तो ढलेंगे

अभय शर्मा
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4TIfCdc0HJs

Amitabh Ziibbu - My Dear Friend

Respected Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh
I am indeed here to reciprocate the love to some of the fine members of FmXTt who continue to feel for me despite I haveing decided to not to cross refer. I t sounds so very painful of me to be so harsh to some of these lovely characters here on the blog..

Yet in the hindsight I know that it was not such a wrong decision.. my apologies to all those who refer to me and I am not able to do so.. I would not dictate that they too should act like me. It is not in my interest to tell anyone what one is expected to do..

For once again I was aty loss f words to find someone infringing the Amitabh ziibbu- the greatest living fan of AB to be misused by someone in casting acerbic and atrocious remarks on someone very close to the blog and to me as well.. if the targetting man does have guts he should resurface with proper identity.. it indeed is sad way of naming individuals and referring them the way it has been done..

I am referring to day 555 and the comment is #601 or so I beleive.. amd it would be a very humble request to our dear friend AZ to issue his part of the say on the matter.. in either case..
Life as such is full of test and trials at every step ansd as eery day progresses and if it has to be burdened with additional troubles while showing or exhibiting our love and affection to the man we have loved all our life on this blog.. it surely does amount to an unfortunate event..

May I thus have a privilege for the first time to seek your intervention brother to seek from the server people to get to know the email id of the man who wrote these comments on day 555.. the one who has been indulging in such acts can not be stopped in the first place.. yet if at a later time it is discovered and referred should it not be removed at the first opportunity… Thus my request is to nab the culprit and get his this particualr post deleted..

Love and Affection

Abhaya Sharma

PS I know I did not share the match yesterday with you.. I was not knowing that India could loose a game where they were just required to make 251 runs.. and Australia has proved one point all over again.. that they are the best side.. that they were the best side.. and that they will remain the best side when it comes to discuss one day cricket..Of course the team that plaeyed better as a unit.. the team that applied itself to the tasks at hand did win the game.. at one satge it did appear that Aussies might simply go ahead to make 280 or thereabouts yet they could muster only 250 on the board.. yet the way they bowled and fielded except for the birthday boy Johnson it was something extraordinary when the final result was announced.. Australia drubbing Inda by 24 runs.. Good work by Bollinger and Watson.. and admirably supported by every member on the field..

------------ The response from Amitabh Ziibbu---------

DEAR ABHAYA JI..
I HAVE GIVEN THE REQUIRED REPLY ON BLOG # 560 FOR THE BLOG #555 AND COMMENT # 601 BY WHICH YOU HURT ME BADLY & YOU ARE REALLY SUCCESSFULL IN DOING SO...I'M ACTUALLY PAYING THE BIG PRICE OF BEING WORSHIPPER OF "PITAMAHA"... YOU SHOULD'VE FIRST ASKED ME THE SAME PERSONALLY THEN SHOULD WRITE SOMETHING CLEVERLY ON THE BLOG... I HAVE MORE THEN 200 SMSES , CALL RECORDINGS, MAILS, & MESSAGES ON YAHOO FOR THE PROOFS BUT I'M QUIET & SHALL BE FOREVER...YOU'VE DONE YOUR LEVEL BEST TO HURT ME DEEPLY & WITH ME , MY HEART TOO IS CRYING...AND NOW, I WILL TALK TO "PITAMAHA"BEFORE I FINISH MYSELF... MANY-MANY THANKS!
REGARDS & LAGE RAHIYE.. (TO HURT INNOCENTS)
AZ
--------------------My new response to him-------

Dear ATOZ
What is it that has felt you behave like this.. my first reaction to it was that I thought it was not probably you.. the way you told me after the posts concerning between us.. I only wanted to give you the benefit of dount.. I had thought it was not you..But what you wrote here and on the blog it does seem that it was indeed you.. If as you say you have reasons to behave the way you did I am not blaming you.. You sometimes behave too funnily.. why should you take everything said about you to your heart did I not say that you are the biggest living fan of Mr. Bachchan and even if I do not say that.. would it change your position even one inch.. You are indeed the biggest fan and you will remain so..

Let me reproduce my post to you here and explain elaborately.. Do definitely talk to brother.. do definitely clarify your stand and my misunderstandings.. but don't call names to others without exposing them and why should you expose Reeham.. what has been happening between two of you I am not aware.. yet brother just think we are Hindus.. we hae been taught to be tolerant of other religions.. We are Indians who consider the guest only next to Gods.. it was only in that respect and in that light that I had posted my comments.. Yo see I hardly take any names of the people on the blog.. reason is to avoid hurting those whose names get missed out..You have a special place in my heart and shall always continue to have the same place.. the biggest Amitabh fan..
It is all right if you forward this email to him.. it is all right if my posts are not accepted there.. I am after all nobody.. I am nobody compared to the kind of position you have with him (deservingly).. so relax and take life sportingly.. agar koi kuchh kabhi galat bhi kah raha hai.. aur baad mein apani galti maan leta hai to ismein harz hi kya hai.. har din tumhaari buraai karata firata hoon aisa to nahi hai naa.. aur braai tumhaari us din bhi nahi kari thee boss. Chalo ab thande dimaag se socho aur agar mujhe bhaai manate hi ho to hans ke dikhaao..
With lots of love
Abhaya Sharma
PS nahi mujhe kisi SMS calls ki parawaah nahi hai.. mujhe kuchh bataane ki zaroorat nahi hai.. mai yah manane ko taiyaar hoon ki tumne jo bhi kaha uska kuchh na kuchh to kaaran hoga.. par yah baat blog par likhane se achchha hota ki tum us vyakti ko hi likhate..agar tumhaare paas puraani facebook ke messages pade hai to shayad aakhiri post meri thhee jiska shayad tumne jawaab isliye nahi diya ho ki tum vyast rahe ho.. agli baar mumbai aaoge to mujhse mile binaa mat jaana. mera mobile number agar tumhe chahiye to main bhej doonga..

Sachin Dev Burman - Death Anniversary

Dear Brother and others
I remember the great music director of yesteryears.. the inimitable Sachin da.. a born music director ..
Sachin Dev Burman

b. October 1 1906

d. October 31 1975
Here is a song that I think all of you would love.. the song from film Guide..

वहां कौन है तेरा,

मुसाफिर, जाएगा कहाँ

दम लेले घडी भर,

ये छैयां, पायेगा कहाँ

वहां कौन है तेरा, मुसाफिर, जाएगा कहाँ

वहां कौन है तेरा…………………

बीत गए दिन, प्यार के पलछिन

सपना बनी वोह रातें

भूल गए वोह, तू भी भुला दे

प्यार की वोह मुलाकातें,

प्यार की वोह मुलाकातें

सब दूर अँधेरा, सब दूर अँधेरा,

मुसाफिर जाएगा कहाँ

कोई भी तेरी, राह ना देखेनाएँ बिछाए ना कोई

दर्द से तेरे, कोई ना तदपा

आँख किसी की ना रोई,

आँख किसी की ना रोई

कहे किसको तू मेरा, कहे किसको तू मेरा,

मुसाफिर जाएगा कहाँ
हो ओ ओ ओ, मुसाफिर, तू जाए गा कहाँ

कहते है ग्यानी, दुनिया है फानी

पानी पे लिखी लिखाई

है सबकी देखि, है सबकी जानी

हाथ किसीके ना आई

हाथ किसीके ना आई

कुछ तेरा ना मेरा, कुछ तेरा ना मेरा,

मुसाफिर जाएगा कहाँ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uG5t1eErbsU

and today if I do not give the credit to Tumpa Bon for reminding me of the death anniversary of the maestro.. I would not be able to forgive myself.. dhonyabaad Tumpa Bon ( I breach the rule for you.. ) thanks for reminding.. I know he is one of those whom I rate very very high..
Coming back to SD Burman or Sachin Da as he was fondly addressed by one and all.. some people are born to be greats.. he was one of those..

Yet another great masterpiece is from the great movie Bandini..
मन की किताब से तुम

मेरा नाम ही मिटा देना

गुन तो न था कोई भी

अवगुण मेरे भला देना

..
मुझे आज की विदा का

मुझे आज की विदा का

मर के भी रहता इंतज़ार..

इ think you can all listen it at the youtube if you too like him as much as I do.. the link for you all
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kViinoEhgE
Brother if you permit me just one more song please.. isake baad kuchh nah mangoonga..
होता तू पीपल

मई होती अमरलता तेरी

तेरे गले माला बनके

पड़ी मुस्काती रे

सुन मेरे साथी रे

सुन मेरे बंधू रे

सुन मेरे मितवा

सुन मेरे साथी रे

The movie was much much ahead of its times.. Nutan ji has acted in some such great films.. at times.. I am not able to explain why did I choose Meena Kumari and Waheeda ji as the most favourites she was equally brilliant.. The youtube link for you all
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_mMaQIxFhE

and the wiki link to dada is given below
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sachin_Dev_Burman
The last song that he recorded before going into coma was
badi soon sooni hai from the film Mili..

Brother can we expect some reminiscence from your interactions with dada.. please
Love as always

Abhaya Sharma

Wishing Shammi Kapoor Sahab on his 78th Birthday

बार बार देखो

हज़ार बार देखो

की देखने की चीज़

है हमारा दिलरुबा

ताली हो.. ताली हो..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k6pYkSh2NcA
This song s dedicated as the birthday gift of Shammi Kapoor Sahab.. born as the second son (Shamsher Raj Kapoor)to Prithviraj Kapoor.. yonger to Raj Kappor and elder to Shashi Kapoor.. he is one of the most talented actor that Hindi fiilm industry produced..Some notable films..
Junglee

Kashmir Ki Kali

Teesari Manzil

An Evening in Paris

Brahmachaari

Professor

China Town

Tumsa Nahi Dekha

Dil Deke Dekho

Ujala

MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY TO YET ANOTHER LIVING LEGEND - SHAMMI KAPOOR SAHAB OF HINDI CINEMA ON HIS 78TH BIRTHDAY..
Love

Abhaya Sharma

Post Script : He acted with brother in Zameer and Paravarish..

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October 22, 2009 at 12:26 am

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The one song that I love very much…
Tum mujhe yun bhula na paaoge..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5l4TeBXTXE
is from Pagla kahin ka by Shammi Kapoor..
And yet another song very close to my heart isHai duniya usiki zamana usi ka..http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i85EpitOIkM
The movie brahmachaari was probably a tremendously good one.. the number aaj kal tere mere pyaar ke charche.. was so popular that it has even been used in some ads as well..http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8qFwo-B9xI0
I wish the ones who love Shammi sahab may wish to listen to these immortal songs one again..
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Respected Brother

Sadar Namaskar
When I was recounting some of the best Shammi Kapoor songs I just forgot to mention the Teesari Manzil song

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तुम ने मुझे देखा

हो कर मेहरबान

रुक गयी ये ज़मीन

थम गया आसमान

जाने मन जाने जान

तुमने ...

कही दर्द की सेहरा में

रुकते चलते होते

इन होंठों की हसरत में

तपते जलाते होते

मेहरबान हो गयी

जुल्फ की बदलियाँ

जान-ऐ-मन जान-ऐ-जान

लेकर ये हसीं जलवे

तुम भी ना कहा पहुचे

आख़िर को मेरे दिल तक

कदमों के निशाँ पहुचे

ख़त्म से हो गए

रास्ते सब यहाँ

जाने मन जाने जान
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AC4WkyqHNno

Today being his 78th birthday.. I thought what better way to wish him on this blog which has become a way of life for me.. moreover he is related to you through your daughter..A great star who deerves every bit to be labelled as first true superstar of Hindi Cinema.. Imagine.. Saira Bano, Asha Parekh and Sharmila Tagore started their career with his films..
I wish him once again a Very Happy Birthday…

Love

Abhaya Sharma

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October 22, 2009 at 12:36 am
Friends

Shammi Kapoor and Mohammad Rafi was that immortal combination of songs that I find it very diffciult to tell you about each one in one go..
I would be biased against Saira Banu if I did not tell you about a song from Junglee..

तुमने मुझको हँसाना सिखाया

तुमने मुझको …

रोने कहोगे रो लेंगे अब

रोने कहोगे रो लेंगे

आंसू का हमारे ग़म न करो

वो बहते हैं तो बहने दो…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=le6eqLkJ6uY

yet I was not aware that Saira Banu got the Filmfare award for her debut film.. she did look very pretty and talented.. I was just two years old at that time..
Love as always

Abhaya Sharma 21/22 October 2009
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Abhaya says:
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October 22, 2009 at 12:53 am
And this last song of Shammi Kapoor’s birthday for its extraordinary music.. don’t ask me music director..

किसी न किसी से कब्भी न कभी

कहीं न कहीं दिल लगाना पड़ेगा

..…

किसको जग में अपना समझूं

संग मैं अपने ले लू

कोई रंगीली छैल छबीली

कोई रंगीली रसीली छैल छबीली

आज मेरी ज़िन्दगी में आके रहेगी…

ढूँढ रहा हूँमै वो दुनिया

प्यार जिसे कहते हैं -२

कौन वो किस्मत वाले हैं जो

लोग वहां रहते हैं

मुझको मेरे दिल लेके वहीं चल

मुझको मेरे दिल मेरे दिल लेके वहीं चल..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8u-n6uUxFA
Have a Great Birthday Shammi Kapoor sahab.. bhaai would be saying .. Abhaya itani baar to tumne mujhe bhi wish nahi kiya dus din pahale.. Shammi sahab mein kya khaas baat hai.. hai bhaai hai.. I had received two mails from him one at the time of my sending him that rach do ab nai madhushala story to you along with vigyaan ki pooja.. and soon it was followed by another mail at the birth of Amrit.. Amrit was blessed by a super star on his arrival in this world.. you see.. fark hai ya nahi..

Love both of you..

Abhaya Sharma

AB Day 541 - Strong Reactions

Respected Brother

Sadar Charan Sparsh
I would for the first time like to know who those six fortunate individuals had been.. not that I have anything against them.. let the FmXt be aware of who were privileged.. and when and how the competition was organised.. if it was on the blog.. long long ago.. it was not well organised..
You keep talking of the fourth estate's disturbing episodes.. I can understand how painful it could be to be dishonest.. but then.. on this blog you never gave an inkling that some six members from our this very family.. or the family you consider FmXt were going to be part of the lunch.. you have full right to be privileged to keep the list within your chest.. and not disclose.. but if that is the case.. I would close down my shop.. I mean I had no intention of being a party to have lunch with you.. have told many a times that I am not even interested in coming over to shake hands and take a few photographs.. yet I also know that our Manoj Kumar Ojha.. a very sincere member of FmXt was in town especially to have a meeting with you on your birthday.. I understand that his exercise did not bear fruit.. Someone flying from Algeria.. making his intentions clear here on the blog.. he has been let down for whatever reasons..It is not who has been let down.. it is theentire FmXt who has been kept in dark about this meeting with some six individuals..
I am disenchanted.. Yes.. I am disllusioned.. yes.. I am forced into disinterest.. Yes..
Abhaya Sharma never has asked anything for his ownself and would never even ask.. not now.. not in future.. not under any conditions.. but Brother.. I do feel that this lunch with six FmXt.. does not seem to be lunch with actual FmXt.. I somehow get a feeling of sadness... not for me but for several deserving candidates here..
I now let you know the three wishes or questions that Amrit, m eleven year old wanted answers..1. Innocent yet intelligent question.. if you are the genie how could you fit into the small lamp2. When would your bhoot leave our house (clearly he means that why does my father all the time talk about you and think of you.. I know I should answer this question.. )3. I don't remember the third wish or question now..
It is for some reasons now irrelevant for ume to associate with you in the same way that I had been for more than a year..
It would not mean that I would not visit the blog.. It would also not mean tha my respect for you is going to diminish.. it is not going to mean that I would not be interested in what other members of FmXt write here..
yet it does Mean brother.. that I have to dissociate myself from the blog for looking beyond.. to remain answerable to my son.. to not get engrossed into my own world of facination and fantasy forever..
I Abhaya Sharma.. herewith pledge that I shall not thrust trhe blog with so much of my presence.. atleast a few of my friends here might feel releieved.. some few may even question my wisdom.. I have not said that I am not going to be part of it at all.. I just want to dossociate for a while.. contemplate and consider what and when shall I write here..
Please do not treat as a dejection.. do not even treat it as something against the fortunate six.. just treat it as a simple query as to when and how the six members were picked.. who were they.. and what were the criteria laid for their selection..
Love as always and Love you always

Abhaya Sharma

AB day 535 - To Dear Manoj

Dear Manoj Kumar Ojha (OjOj) and members FmXt

How very kind of you to have thought of representing us all.. as a matter of fact.. I extend my invitation to come and meet me too.. if time permits and you have no hesitation in meeting someone so miniscule after meeting someone so majestic..

It is out of great respect.. that I say that you and Ziibbu are beyond ordinary admirers like me.. I have been here in Mumbai for last so many years.. in fact.. I had strong desire to see him during his coolie accident.. but then his state at that point of time was such medically as well as otherwise.. that it was impossible for an ordinary scientist to even dream of meeting him.. I mean these words.. especially impossible..

Over the time.. it so happened that I was mre inclined towards theatre and was training myself to be a scientist.. there were just two occasions when I stopped in front of his house with some intent.. first was around late nineties when I wanted ABCL to be renamed as Amitabh Bachchan’s complex of library.. the original content is now available with me.. then on second occasion it was couple of years back on our return from Juhu Beach that two of my younger brother's son Apoorv and Amol and Amrit wanted to have a look and find out if they could see him.. Amrit had become quite angry when the watchman said a no.. he was holding a towel in his hand and had thrown at the Prateeksha entrance.. he was all but eight years at that time.. but he was quite angry..

For me.. I now have no desire to meet him personally.. meet him everyday here.. I can not expect meeting him for a few seconds as important as meeting him n daily basis and sometimes more than once in a day..

For me.. I feel.. he is an extraordinary man.. I should not disturb him for such ordinary things as an autograph or mere photograph..

हाँ.. किसी दिन कभी मेरे पास कोई ऐसी आवश्यकता होगी की उनसे मिले बिना गुजारा नही चलेगा तो अवश्य ही उनसे मिलने जाऊँगा.. वैसे कई बार सोचा ज़रूर था की मैं उनके यहाँ हो आऊं.. खासकर १९ जनुअरी २००५ को मॅन में बहुत इच्छा थी की एक बार डॉ. बच्चन के अन्तिम दर्शन कर आऊँ.. पर ऐसा हो न सका.. और अब ये बात मेरे दिल को हमेशा मसोसती रहती है .. मधुशाला के रचयिता से उनके अन्तिम समय में भी मिलने से वंचित रह गया..

बस यही सोचकर अब अपने मन को कठोर बना लिया है की.. भाईसाहब से मिलकर अगर उन्हें कोई ख़ास लाभ न हो तो मेरा उनसे मिलने का क्या तात्पर्य हो सकता है.. प्रशंसक तो मैं उनका हूँ.. और हमेशा रहूँगा.. उनका आभारी भी हो गया हूँ जिस तरह उन्होंने कुछ एक दफा मेरे लिखी बातें पढ़ी और कई एक बार उत्तर भी दिया..

बस.. इश्वर से यही मनोकामना है की भाई वास्तव में भाईचारे की नई मिसाल कायम कर सके.. विश्व शान्ति के प्रति कुछ कर सकें.. लोगों के बीच हार्मोनी बढ़ा सकें.. main यह नही जानता की वो ऐसा कर सकते है या नही, main मानता हूँ की वो इस दिशा में बहुत कुछ कर सकते हैं..

मुझे ना-उम्मीद कर दे उम्मीद तो नही..
दुनिया में ऐसा कोई मेरा भाई तो नही..

Let me take a break.. I have already submitted a double entry with nearly same content at #140.. the second part has a post script that is important and not a part of the unedited version that appeared first..

I am providing a link to a blog that I am maintaining just for him.. though some of the earlier contents are also present in my original blog.. and my very early communications of the blog are part fo some pdf links at my website..

the link is
http://abhayaamitabh.blogspot.com/ and
http://abhayakavi.blogspot.com/

Now, I do wish that Manoj if possible give me a call at 9869258653 once you reach Mumbai.. and if possible send me a mail about your exact schedule of Mumbai stay.. at anusite@gmail.com

With lots of love and thanks for representing us.. I wish that you get enough time with brother.. as he is quite busy these days..

Abhaya Sharma
October 9 2009

He is my childhood hero.. and for some reasons I have great attachment to my childhood.. even though it was not very pleasant.. it had great love and affection for Mr. Amitabh Bachchan.. I therefore present this Jagjit Singh’s Ghazal to brother as yet another dedication on his birthday..

मोहल्ले की सबसे निशानी पुरानी
वो बुधिया जिसे बच्चे कहते ठे नानी
वो नानी की बातों में परियों का डेरा
वो चेहरे की झुर्रियों में सदियों का फेरा
भुलाए नही भूल सकता है कोई
वो छोटी सी रातें वो लम्बी कहानी

वो कागज़ की कश्ती वो बारिश का पानी..

http://vvv.youtube.kom/voch?v=bk2neekjn