Thanks a Lot for Reversing my Mind..

Respected Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh

and My dear Friends -

(Kashmira Grewal, Subhash Kaura, Rochelle Goldman, Rose Cee, Carla Flum, Kishore Bhatt, Reeham ( I found your FB name too difficult to spell!), Elena Seredkina and Rasha Zayed.. + Tumpa Ghosh)

The story on Fern and Bamboo.. Oh it was a marvelous story.. it may or may not be connected with me quitting the blog.. yet the message s very pertinent to my frame of mind.. I shall wait and let my abilities grow over a period of time ..

I have other reasons to not to quit the blog after some very precious remarks from the facebook.. that I received subsequent to my desire to quit the blog..

Some may say that it does not matter if I continue to write or decide against it.. yet as lot of my friends who write so beautifully over here besides you.. have won over my not so well found reasons of deciding to quit in a sudden spasm..

They have conquered over me.. so also have you ..I shall continue to be here.. even if it is less frequent.. less personal and less lengthy.. I know I got too involved with you and your blog.. it is understandable for two reasons..

The first and foremost is the fact that Amitabh Bachchan is a super human being and I can not ignore to be a part of the blog which belongs to him .. there is so much to learn from the life and times of the living legend.. that if I do not continue for whatever reasons.. it would be a big personal loss to me and me alone..

Secondly.. I saw this as a great opportunity to have my say and hear what others have to say on some important aspects of leading a good life.. Do I gain if I fail to visit the blog is to be weighed and thought over with a calm and subtle mind..

I realize I should not let go this opportunity of meeting you everyday.. of reading your thoughts on so many issues.. of reading your reminiscence from past.. of your present and future projects.. to be able to get my views heard and red by the fellow bloggers.. it has been a great experience..

SO I DECIDED TO CONTINUE AND NOT TO THINK OF QUITTING EVER AGAIN..

AND YES.. PLEASE WISH JAYA JI ON HER BIRTHDAY.. MAY SHE ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE.. AS A BEAUTIFUL PARTNER.. AS A COMPANION FOR MANY MORE YEARS.. AS SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR GREATER ACHIEVEMENTS ..

I DID NOT KNOW OF IT.. BUT LEARNED FROM ONE OF TE FELLOW BLOGGERS POST.. (LENA TO BE PRECISE..)

Abhaya India April 9 2009 12:24 PM IST

Here is a list of some correspondence that made me change my decision.. thanks to everyone.. I can not deny their presence in my life for my own good..

Abhaya Sharma
April 8 at 2:09pm
Oh dear Friends..Have I written my last post on day 348 of brother's blog.. t was very special t know you all.. I may continue to read the blog and visit facebook.. My love to all of you ..

Abhaya

PS In case I have inadvertently hurt anyone please forgive me.. I think I could have added more names to this list.. yet this is the list - I have read and liked the comments posted by these people.. The Rose, Reeham and Rasha were the special 3 Rs (actually earlier it was Reshmi) and Rochelle also qualified to be part of it.. I hope I was lying to you.. and that someday I do get to write on the blog again..
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Kashmira Grewal
April 8 at 3:03pm
Dear Abhaya,
If you have decided to quit the blog, I am sure you have had a good reason to do so! Your comments thru the duration that you were there, many which I have read too, were always written with grace and humility, not to mention their informative and educative content. I am sure you will be missed by one and all, specially those of whom you have interacted with. It is heartening to know that you shall continue to interact with your friends here on the FB.I am sure it will be a welcome change, should you decide to return to the blog in the near future.

Wishing you the best all ways....

Kashmira
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Abhaya Sharma
April 8 at 4:23pm
Some.. only some reasons are posted in comments to Rose's note on Inner Peace.. Yet I hope that brother and all of you do not find any hidden meanings in it.. someone did say I was politically motivated.. in truth.. I hate the word politics.. I just wanted to take a break and think of our existence as human beings.. kyaa pakistani insan nahi hote.. main apne aap se bahut lazzit mahsoos kar raha hoon.. I can not express why I have decided to quit the blog.. there is no personal grievance against brother or anyone..

Love and regards

Abhaya
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Subhash Kaura
April 8 at 5:55pm
Dear Abhaya Ji

That is not good news.....However for whatever reasons you have taken this decision, it must be respected. It has been great to have known you through the Blog, through your writings. I am very hopeful that you would continue to visit the Blog and FB from time to time and we can remain in touch. I do wish you all the best in your efforts to focus on other important and demanding issues, good heath and happiness.Let us keep in touch.

Best wishes and regards

Subhash
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Rochelle Goldman
April 8 at 10:29pm
Dear Abhaya,

I'm sorry to learn that you are leaving the blog. Hopefully it is just for a break. I enjoyed reading your posts too. I think AB will miss your comments. It is obvious that you worked hard on them. I hope to see you back in the future. Take care.

Rochelle
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Rose Cee
April 8 at 10:35pm
Abhaya Bhai

I have left you a message on my notes. Pls read it. I understand how you feel but you can perhaps not disappear out of the blog comepletely. You don't have to make a comment daily but still from time to time comment there.I too have been busy that i have been somewhat less active there but I guess life does sometimes needs our attention. Just the fact that you are there am sure Mr Bachchan would appreciate it. After all you are a very valued EF.

But keep in touch always. You came into my life and I would hate to lose you now.
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Carla Flum
Today at 12:29am
Dear Abhaya,

It makes me sad reading your message; I am so gladly that I you became acquainted, despite our language difficulties you gave me much courage and I like you as a friend to keep.I would not like to miss you, and your wonderful notes, I think that Mr. Bachchan and many from EF to become miss you too. Nevertheless I respect your decision, and hope for myself every so often to hear from you. I wish you all love and Good luck!

God bless and to protects you Abhaya and your family.

Take care of yourself!

Carla
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Kishore Bhatt
Today at 12:37am
Dear Abhaya,

are you leaving the blog as you feel some people are saying that you have political tendency...this is a shame

Kishore
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Chiisaiame Medjer (Our Reeham..)
Today at 12:38am
Please re-consider this decision..When i read AB's day 350 blog :( The most interesting observations/critique of your blog has come from… ANS//I have a list of them. But it would not be prudent to mention them by name. They are extremely intelligent, incisive and pertinent in their observations and I admire and learn a lot from them. )

Among a lot of names passed through my mind.. your name had appeared as one of those AB had mentioned, see again AB's replies to you.. you will know it..concerning politics.. abusive comments had attacked AB himself, Rochelle , Rose and me.. and we are still all together enjoying the priceless communication with AB.. i know he will be missing you dear... and please keep in touch wherever you like.. don't go far away from your friends..okay..!!

Take a very good care of yourself dear.
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Elena Seredkina
Today at 12:40am
My dear friend Abhaya!

It is your choice! But you need to know! We all love you! We all need you! We all will miss your wonderful deep posts!! And.. we all will wait for your COME-BACK...
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Rasha Ahmed Zayed
Today at 2:42am
Mr.Sharam

these are sad news indeed...and i wish you would re-think about this decisioni actually appreciate and respect your reasons for having to quit the blog...but still have hopes it would be only for a short period.it was nice getting to know you throught AB's blog, and it will be great to still interact also through FB.take care, and i wish to see you there in the blog again...even if from time to time.

Rasha

Rasha Ahmed Zayed
Today at 2:45am
so sorry for the mispelling ... i meant Mr. Sharma
Rasha
…. Rasha

Tumpa Ghosh
Today at 3:27pm
Dear Abhayaji,

I shall definitely miss ur posts as well as ur nice poems and surely AB will also miss u a lot. I agree wilth Reeham, in AB's interview section when He said He has a list of respondants, He admires a lot, believe me ur name first came in my mind. And now such a sad news. really miss u.

Can u keep urself away from the blog?? I don't know. Request u not to leave FB anyway.

Regards, charansparsh

Tumpa
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Abhaya Sharma
Today at 5:05pm
Oh My God!

I am already overwhelmed by the reposnses.. you friends have made a small time star of me! That was never ever the intention when I first thought of informing you about my decision..

Tumpa, I may not deserve the kind of respect you have shown.. yet I am moved and maybe I feel fortunate enough to tell all of you that I have already broken my self-exile.. I did write on day 350 not in my usual style yet something to say that I consider the opinion of my dear friends and some of the most important persons in my life in recent past..

I have great respct for each one of you.. I did not know that it was not so easy to dissociate from brother's blog.. especially when it offered me a completely new world of relationships here.. I kneal down and accept your wishes to be associated to take the reaction forward one sometimes needs a catalyst.. sometimes the reaction is retarded by anti-catalysts (my chemist friends should pardon me for coining the new term for inhibitor.. I hope to post this reply at brother's blog.. he must also know of what he has actually provided me for my being a part of his wonderful blog..

Abhaya India April 9 2009 5:05 PM IST

PS I had earlier dropped Sharma from my signatures at the blog.. Today I replaced India with Eartharian.. I hope none derive a feeling that I do not like India.. after all India too is a part of this great earth..

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I am indebted to you brother for giving me these new set of friends.. They are as valuable to me and respecting their opinion.. I shall continue to write..

chahen kahin bhi tum raho
chahenge tumko umra bhar
tumko na bhool payenge ...

or after knowing such beautiful minds ..

Teri pooja ki thaali mein laayen hai hum

phool har rang ke aaj har daal ke..

laut kar aa sake na jahan mein to kya

yaad bankar dilon me too aa jayenge..

( No, I do not say it for not able to return today.. I have already made a comeback.. on the brother's blog..)

This is one of my favourite numbers from Shaheed- the movie by Sir Manoj Kumar or Bharat Kumar as he came to be known in his heydays.. It says -

We have decorated the sights with

flowers of all hues and of all types..

What if we aren't able to return to the world!

we shall live in the hearts of our loved ones.. (atleast)

____________________

Kashmira Grewal
Today at 6:50pm
My dear Abhaya,

Owing to acute power cuts, I have just seen this mail, and after going thru all of the replies already here, I feel there is very little that I can add to it. I guess I am a bit behind schedule.....

I am a little confused at reading about some demotivation from fellow bloggers.....and I am rather surprised that someone as rooted and grounded as you should succumb to such inanity! If anything, I feel that any criticism would only come our way if we are 'above' the expected average perceptions of our critics! So rather, take this as a compliment, and carry on with your good work. I feel at any given point of time, all of us here, without exception, have been 'targetted' but we have stood our grounds and I hope that you will too! Like Tumpa has so beautifully put it in her recent comment - the blog feels so good and clean and fresh....but once in a while some old car comes and leaves behind a lot of smoke and pollution...forgive me Tumpa for not quoting you verbatim, but I think this was the gist of what you were trying to say!

So Abhaya, do pls put this behind you. We are as good as we think we are - so as long as your conscience is easy, get on with your work and enjoy it too! I do hope that we shall continue to see your comments on the blog henceforth.....

With kind wishes,

Kashmira

Rasha Ahmed Zayed
Today at 7:23pm
Reply
Mr. Abhaya,

of course our first intention in coming to AB's blog has been having this direct communication to him...and surely everyone of us has got his own special facinating world after this comunication with AB...so don't let anyone demotivate or despirit you by any thing he says and thus deprive you from what i can say the most enjoyable.many of our dear friends have been subjected to similar situations which may had caused them to quit as well...but they stood very well and ignored them.good to know you have already posted your comment to the last entry, and glad to read it and that you have reconsidered this decision.as you say, nothing should deprive you from this chance of meeting AB and talk to him everyday.

best regardds to you,

Rasha


Deepak Taunk
Today at 8:22pm
My dear Abhaya ji,

What happened suddenly? Though we were chatting on daily basis I was not able to keep up with the blog due to my some other sudden commitment as you know. Looks like something real serious must have happened that has lead you to this thought. You are one of the special bloggers who we all admire and look forward to hearing from you. Other day you did mention something about a similar issue as this, but I am sorry I did not realize the situation was taking such a serious proportion.We want you among us. We want you to continue to enlighten us with your views and opinions as always.

I dedicate the Bob Marley song to all my friends on the facebook.. and please Naresh, Sunil, Ibraar Hussain, Gilga Saran and amny others please do not see any bias in my mind.. You all should have been part of the list.. my lethargy.. you can punish me the way you want..

Here goes the song ..

Is this love
Is this love
that I am feeling
I wanna know
wanna know
wanna know now..